Its me dino blogging today. This blog was managed by my lovely wife in the past but today, I decide to write something here and not because i want to remind myself of the ill feelings and strainous relationship I have with my own family now or to show any unforgiveness or any grudges. It is just for me to pen all these down to express my heartfelt being of the whole matter.

In fact, I am rather immune to how I am being treated as less "competent" compared to the 2 precious daughters of my parents. I am not angry or bitter or frustrated anymore. I know that they are people of such so I have to accept the fact that they are like that. There is no more need to feel upset or affected anymore as nobody can change them unless they are saved by the power of the Holy Spirit. I just want to be a good husband to my wife and a good daddy to my kids, and most importantly, to take my calling seriously, in managing my business according to God's purpose.

On 17 Apr, Pst Kong was preaching & teaching about Forgiveness and my wife suggested to pay a visit to my parents after the service. We know deep in our hearts we have forgiven them even they do not speak fairly for us on all the past incidents, and even as parents, they did not make peace for their children to be loving and happy again. Instead, they told me & esther with their own mouth, that it's ok for us to just say HI to them if we ever meet face to face. Is this a normal family relationship ??

Anyway,we are doing our part by following one of the 10 commandments,i.e. to honour our parents. But just to obey the voice of the Holy Spirit, we went ahead to visit them after the service but co-incidently they were not at home. They have gone to JB with their youngest daughter. The one who messed up the relationship between me & my parents. So we went to pay a visit to the neighbour Aunty Susan.

So, fine, my wife called my dad to let him know we are there but realised they are not at home.
I do not understand why as parents, they fail to realise that, the fact that we appeared at their home on a sat evening is a sign of our first move to make peace with their 2 daughters who had been denying their own misdoings and did not treat us as part of the family anymore. Eventhough it was them who messed up the relationship, we did not want to carry on hating them. We just wanted and hope that the visit on that sat evening will turn the family situation into something positive at least. But too bad, it could not be made happened that day.

On Fri 23 Apr, my mom called esther to ask when we are going over, and asked whether we want to go over on Fri evening. But when esther told her that we intend to go on the next day, i.e. Sat, she was hesitating. She sounded like we are going there to create trouble. Obviously she is more concerned of her 2 daughters' happiness, maybe because she knows that they do not like to see us. So she just try to stop us from going on Sat evening but she does not have the courage to say it.

On sat afternoon on 24 Apr, as we are getting late for service and since it will be too rush if we eat at a shopping mall, Esther suggested that we go to my parents house downstair to buy food up to eat and visit them for a short while before we attend service. After Esther & the 2 boys had gone up to my parent's home, I went to park my car and after that, when I was walking towards my parents' block, I saw a champagne color Chrysler drove past me, and I noticed that was the husband of my parents' youngest daughter. He gave me that "who are you " look and drove away after that and I did not see them coming up to my parents house at all. Any human being in the right mind will understand that they want to avoid us. So what else can we do ?

The eldest daughter even ignored us when we once met her at Anchorpoint last year. She totally behaved as though we were strangers to her. Once when we visited my parents and she was there, she left immediately when she saw us.

God, I am not going to bother about all these as I know that I cant do anything to change this situation. Only you my Heavenly Father can make things possible if YOU want it to happen for the good of your child. God, I want to put my heart & soul into ISE that you have called me for this business. I need to focus and do well and bring Glory to your Mighty Glorious Name.

Esther & I are waiting for my father to initiate himself if he really wish to have a birthday celebrated by his son & his daughters together as a family if he still remember me who is his only son. God, you know that I am BROKE. I am waiting upon you for more C.O.D. orders and to increase my income from my Business to pay the list of outstanding bills. I do not have cash and have limited credit facilities to buy my dad a proper Birthday meal. He is somebody who expects a sumptous meal for his birthday every year. Last year, we ate with him without his 2 daughters and he told my youngest aunty that he is not happy to celebrate his birthday in this manner. But God, why are my parents not doing anything about their childrens' horrible relationship ? What else can I do but to just leave everything to YOU God.

I thank you I still have YOU who is my Heavenly Father, my Help in times of needs, my comforter and my fortress. I thank you for my wife Esther and my 2 boys Terry & Teagan. They are the reason for me to keep pressing on and moving on. But YOU are my only Strength and Purpose. I know you dislike it when I stop trying, or regret, or waste and be ungrateful for what You have been providing us. So Lord, I just want to tell you I am waiting upon You and I am believing & expecting from You a Great miracle that my storehouse couldnt contain but to share it as a blessings to others.

27 Apr 2010 12.40 am.
Thank you Lord.

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Happy April Fool's Day to all. Time flies ! its already Apr 2009. Been super duper busy for the past few months..LIfe is so full of mixed feelings ! Lots of happenings lately and the current economy is affecting us too, especially Dino as he is in business. But with Teagan around, somehow we find relief to our mental stress when we look at him. Time & time again, we wonder whether dino should press on or to give up. If he find a job, how long can it last ? What kind of boss he will encounter ? People who are happily and comfortability working as a employee all their life will not understand his pain. Our only hope is God will really hear our prayers and get us out of this turmoil soon. God, where are You ? Can You hear us ? We remember how much You have helped us with Teagan during my pregnancy. We want to stand strong by Faith and by your Grace.. but we are only human. We are seeking God's Grace & Mercy to hear our prayer and deliver us from these emotional & mental anxieties. What else can we do but just to trust Him and expect a Miracle soon.

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HaPPy NeW YeaR 2009 to all readers of our Blog. Imagine how fast it is that 2008 is gone.
Lately i have not updated this blog as been too preoccupied with family & work. These days...every evening have to pick up Terry & Teagan from 2 different venues after work. But really have to thank God for all His wonderful plans for us. Terry to be happily settled down at the Right place for him "Baptist student care" and Teagan being look after by the Right Babysitter..Madam Wee. We are really so happy that Teagan is perfectly well taken care by aunty who is so good and loving to him. Teagan has put on much weight eversince he is being babysitted by Mdm Wee from Sep onwards.

2008 has been a really stressful year for me & Dino. It was lovely in the beginning after the arrival of Teagan in Nov 2007...the first few months of 2008 was indeed great ! My in-laws were very supportive and they helped us look after Teagan and love the 2 kids very much. We appreciate them very much and we could get along very well. When Dino's mom fall sick in June and diagnosed with cancer, I was very shocked in the beginning and felt so sorry for her and I asked God why a good woman like her will kena this sickness and Dino & I also wanted to bring her to church but she is very resistant about it. We also suggested to get a maid to look after Teagan at her place and she can just be there to supervise the maid and our intention is to lighten her workload of looking after Teagan, and the maid can help in cooking and household chores at her place as well. But unfortunately, our good intention is not recognised and was turned down by dino's father..so no choice. Dino's mom suggested that we let her neighbour look after Teagan and because we know she loves Teagan and want to have a chance to see him everyday if her neighbour look after him, we agree and accept her idea just to make her feel happy. Unfortunately, sometime in July or Aug, the relationship between us & Dino's parents started to become "bad" because of 2 nasty women. These 2 women are none but Dino's very own sisters. They are really good in acting...so good that I think they should be labled"The great Pretenders". If not becos of them, the relationship between dino's parents & us will remain good.
Towards the last few months of 2008, we have been reflecting and feeling very upset that why our relationship with Dino's parents has become a distant and why they never realise that their daughters are the one who has tore us apart from them. Why are they so supportive towards the 2 women are are married off and still come back and be kpo all the time ? What kind of parents they are ? Dino is their only son.. Don't they know it themselves. Sorry I have to speak in this manner but this is a true fact that I just have to speak up. Dino told me that there is no genuine love in his family. In their mind, money is everything. There are many incidents that made us feel that money is more important to them than the love of humanity and relationships.
It's really very pain and hurting to know the true facts that they are such people. I am coping well because afterall, they are just my "in-laws" but for Dino, he feel extremely hurt and upset because they are his immediate family...he told me that they have changed very much and become very materialistic. That's why whatever we do can never satisfy them...so what can we do.

For frens and my own family members who know about the incident, all supported us very much and feel that there's really nothing we have to do since people are like that and it's beyond our control. We shall not let this hurt stay in our hearts anymore and we decided to let them go... as far as possible. We also pray and hope that these people could kindly just leave us alone too. What's the point of pretending and acting ? If they dislike us, do let us go rather than to act act and act. Dont they feel tired of acting. THey dont but we are...no thanks to acting... PLEASEEEE....we have enough. Pls torlong torlong give us a break. Dont call me "da sao" anymore and at the same time give me that nasty stare. I feel even more hurt when such people call me "da sao" just for the sake of calling me in front of the parents while they dont really accept me as their sister-in-law in their hearts. What's the point of addressing me "da sao" and then give me a nasty look and later just ignore and remain silence. One is silent but the other who tried very hard to talk but actually she is only talking to Terry just to mislead her own parents to make them feel that she is being very nice. I really want to laugh. They dont even address their "brother", then how come they have a da sao ?? What a joke man.
So anyway, they want to call me da sao, i just answer them "em" thats all just as a response. But in my heart, i know that I know i am not a da sao in people's eye and I dont give it a damn anyway. It sounds like I am not forgiving them.. well, but it's ok. To me, i have no more feelings..let alone talk abt forgiving. I dont think they worth anything for me to feel angry so that's nothing to be forgiven at all. Hahaha.

After I post this into our blog, I shall not talk abt them anymore. The reason for writing this is to help myself ease the pain once again that these people had done to me. So thank you that 2008 is coming to an end.

Well, we are so glad that 2008 is over and we welcome 2009 with wide open arms and also believe that God will pour down his Blessings of Abundance to us thru His Windows that is wide open for us too. Lord, we are waiting for that miracle that you are going to bless us with very soon and we cant wait to bless those we love too.

As this Blog was created to dedicate to God, we want to take this opportunity to Thank the Lord and we look forward to a awesome & bountiful year of 2009.

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